(The famous Paul spoke in many entries ... I promise to update more often!)
spent a year and a half in a relationship that at first, I admit, it was beautiful everything, absolutely everything. He was divine, I called to ask how I was and wanted to tell me in the middle of your work, I cared so much and treated me like a queen, down here, fine, I admit. Shortly after starting the relationship with him, I stopped for fear of commitment, as he told me what happened, I was afraid to go so fast, I was very young, he took me 6 years and this was not a silly. And being together in secret was very difficult for me and I was getting out of hand. I felt that it fell a couple of tears and asked me please not to leave him, and that broke my heart, but everything was very new to me and not know what to do. Two months were separated without speaking, but I missed him so much that I did not care anything and I called his cell phone telling him I missed him.
Here had talked about it and fear that he had my ex mother ...
I was risking to look like an idiot, to send me to hell for leaving and then returning, but not take it anymore, even fear had that responsibility at his age, a situation in my house (since we were in hiding) I wanted to be with him as well. And everything went perfect. Until I realized it was a super possessive and jealous, I called at 9:40 am before going to work at 10:15 when he arrived at work at 15 in my pleasure, my school exit at 18:10, at 19:45 when he was about to leave his job, a little while later when the group rose type 20:15, and finally at 22:30 when he finished dinner. 7 calls per day over the odd mandatory complementary. Eventually I realized that I did for love or miss me but to know where all the time walked.
Needless to say, I left all my friends, I was all day connected to facebook to see that no one put anything weird on my wall to arrive in time and erase it, because anything that seems "out place "was a trigger for a bout of hours and hours. I walked away from my friends, I fought with my sister for 4 months, needless to say that NEVER came out to dance and everything I did or said was suspicious. I never cheated, ever, but on New Year's two years ago my best friend got tired to let her side and put me between a rock and a hard place or going to dance with her or almost mad for life. I agreed and he was about to go home at about 18 that he would not suspect, I sent a message to my sister in English for my mom if she read the message did not understand, because it did not even know she had a boyfriend or that he was going to dance that night and my boyfriend did not know he was going to dance that day.
"Vanessa, I'm gonna dance with Lud, earth coverage at home, he does not know anything "What happened? Instead of putting out my sister is sends him .
Then I cried a NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! But the message had been sent and said what I said I would not believe. I read and read and did not know if you break my cell phone before he called or escape to an unknown country and change my name. Needless to say I think we were quarreling about 2 days, but then we came back, and nothing but nothing was ever the same.
clarify that I was not going to put him bowling horns, just did not want to lose my best friend, and that day, ended up losing both. Then later I realized that this unhealthy relationship I had with him was based on fear, we had afraid of my own boyfriend, made and unmade all to avoid angry and to make him happy. I suffered a lot because he and my best friend were fighting over me like a piece of meat and put me between a rock and a hard, often heard the phrase "him or me" "Go with it and I do not see more ".
A year and a half couples, secretly and totally unhealthy. That was not love. She was blind and I did not realize what was missing everything.
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